effortless

Is it ever fair for both parties when something good once shared turns bad and breaks down?

I hate to say this, but I have no regrets for the way things turned out. Yes, sonetimes feeling this way sucks but I don't regret the ending. I regret ever letting us start something in the first place.

I realised today that I have nothing to feel sore about, because someday, in the future, I'll have more than I ever got with you. And starting today, I'm standing firm in this new standard I'm setting for myself and I'm placing a priceless value on myself, just like what Ps Prince shared in the sermon DVD I bought. Sure, I'm unworthy of Gods love. But that hardly makes me worthless.

Contrary to what I always thought to be true, maybe we really just aren't meant to be no matter how hard we try..... If we even try at all. If real love is easy and we shouldn't even need to struggle for it, then this speaks volumes about what we had.

Peri-Peri!

Any chap who wants to win my heart needs to bring me to nando's and let me eat without judgement on my greediness lol.

NANDO'S IS ZE BEST.

Men of courage

I have so much to do but I'm just unmotivated and not driven! I don't know why.

Sigh.

On a completely unrelated note, I watched courageous just now at home with my parents. And I decided that it would be amazing to be in love with a man who is crazy about Jesus and whose whole life revolves around Jesus. I can only imagine how it'll be like when I meet that boy.

One day I'll meet the boy who will ask my father for permission before he counts me! That what I want, Jesus. But definitely not anytime soon.

I need time to get MY own life right with God before I even think about another relationship.




AND BTW!!!!! My darling puppy was so clever today she walked into her pen and pooped!!! BY HERSELFFF achievement okay, because she's not toilet trained and usually poops just anywhere in the living room :( so happy! Haha PTL :)

So, abruptly moving back to the first topic I was on about...... Can my essays write themselves pretty please?

Lion

I still remember the look on your face
Lit through the darkness at 1:58
The words that you whispered for just us to know
You told me you loved me so why did you go away

I do recall now the smell of the rain
Fresh on the pavement, I ran off the plane
That July 9th the beat of your heart
It jumps through your shirt, I can still feel your arms

But now I'll go sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

I do remember the swing in your step
The life of the party, you're showing off again
And I roll my eyes and then you pulled me in
I'm not much for dancing but for you did

Because I loved your handshake, meeting my father
I love how you walk with your hands in your pockets
How you'd kiss me when I was in the middle of saying something
There's not a day I don't miss those rude interruptions

And I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss

Never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips

So I'll watch your life in pictures like I used to watch you sleep
And I'll feel you forget me like I use to feel you breathe
And I'll keep up with our old friends just to ask them how you are
Hope it's nice where you are

And I hope the sun shines and it's a beautiful day
And something reminds you, you wish you had stayed
We can plan for a change in weather and time
I never planned on you changing your mind

So, I'll go, sit on the floor wearing your clothes
All that I know is I don't know
How to be something you miss

I never thought we'd have a last kiss
Never imagined we'd end like this
Your name, forever the name on my lips
Just like our last kiss, forever the name on my lips
Forever the name on my lips, just like our last

Current read: The woman he loved before

"When you reach the point in your life where everything is meaningless, you will go back to where you found meaning in the first place." - Joshua Peh